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Sex, Drugs and Complications 13Chapter13
''You want my opinion? You did the right thing'' Lee tried to assure me. I didn't know who else to go to, he was the only one who'd give me an honest answer to the question that was playing over and over in my head.
''Am I a bad person Lee'' I said through tears
''For the last time, no'' he told me, ''You did what was best for you''
''Yeah. I put myself first and not him, I put my feelings before his!'' I cried
''Lex the only problem with you is you always put everyone before yourself'' Lee said, ''I'm not saying theres anything wrong with that but it doesn't hurt to just take care of your own feelings once and a while''
''Carter needs me and I just abandoned him! How could I have done that to him?!''
''Sweetie you're being too hard on yourself'' Lee placed his hand on my shoulder, ''You can stay here as long as you want''
''No its ok, I'm going back to my apartment'' I got up to leave, ''But thanks for the offer Lee''
''Anytime you wanna talk Lex, about anything, you know wh
Sex, Drugs and Complications 12Chapter12
Carter took off again three days later. I had tried to reason with him and make him tell me where he was and what he was doing while he was away the first time but I never had such luck with him, he just clammed up and shut himself off from me, didn't want to look at me never mind talk to me. Didn't return my calls, pretended he wasn't home when I went to his apartment. I couldn't deal with this, I tried my best but I couldn't do it anymore. I had to do something, something I'd probably regret in the long run because I loved him so much but it was the right thing, for both of us. I took a piece of paper, a pen and an envelope and wrote, didn't even think about what to say or anything, I just wrote. I put the letter on his night table, he'd probably never find it but I left it there in case I was wrong.
I was long gone when Carter stumbled in that night, he wasn't as drunk as I expected so he noticed what I had left for him. He had difficulty reading it at first but he squinte
Sex, Drugs and Complications 11Chapter 11
Four days passed, I didn't see Carter or hear from him. I was worried. I imagined the worse. Ronnie told me that he'd come back when he was ready but that didn't stop me from calling the hospitals, even the police.
''He'll be back I wouldn't even bother worrying''
''No Ronnie I will bother worrying he's not been home for two days'' I snapped, ''What if he's lying in a ditch somewhere?-''
''How many ditches have you seen in LA?'' Ronnie laughed
''Or what if he's hurt? I know the states he gets in''
''I'm sure he's fine, he's disappeared for longer. When he was 10 he ran away from home and lived in my yard for four days''
''You knew he was there and didn't even bother letting him in?'' I said
''He brought a tent so he slept in that. No, I wanted to let him in but my mom wouldn't have him in the house'' Ronnie laughed ''She didn't like me hanging around with him''
''What was he like when he was younger?'' I asked, intrigued to know what he was like as a child, the only time we
Sex, Drugs and Complications 10Chapter 10
''Where did you disappear to earlier?'' Carter asked me when I got home, I didn't answer him as I was still shaken about seeing Lee in that state. ''Oh wait don't tell me. You went to see him didn't you?'' He had a look of disappointment as well as disgust on his face
''Well someone had to and it clearly wasn't going to be you'' I snapped
''Because I don't care thats why''
''Somewhere in life I think someone drained all the compassion out of you or have you always been so cold?'' I was appalled by his attitude
''I'm only cold when it concerns him'' He said lighting up a cigarette
''I don't believe you sometimes Carter I really don't'' I had to walk away, he had no shred of compassion or any sympathy at the least towards Lee's problems, it made me angry, I hated him when he was like this
''If thats the way you feel then don't marry me'' he said from nowhere, I was taken aback by his reaction to that, all I remember saying was that I couldn't believe his attitude he honestly t
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